My doors are locked, the lights are off, and I am trembling in fear
I'm alive, but I wish I wasn't here, oh
The rope around my neck has snapped and all I feel is fear
For all the people in my life... I hold dear
The time is passing way too slowly for me to not feel regret
For all the joy and pain that caused this life to live today but yet
My mind is swimming in the river flowing down into death
But I can't save myself oh why, oh why am I just... such a mess?
Why do I try so hard to live? But I live in fear
Why do I try to find release? When it's just right here
Every day I fall apart and fall back to the start
Why can't I... why can't I... build the courage to...